You are looking for something.
Something to keep things interesting, something to keep things safe, a cook set for backpacking, a rack to keep your bathroom organized, a new recipe to try.
But you’re looking for it.
Googling, scanning your newsfeed, asking (for a friend), window shopping, reading reviews, looking at profiles, swiping.
You don’t notice you’re looking.
You’re completely wrapped up in it.
Then you stop and wonder, what is it that I really want?
And you realize you don’t know.
It’s a feeling. Safe and warm, right, good, smart, satisfied.
You know you’ve felt it before.
In bed on a Sunday.
By a campfire.
With a pet in your lap.
A small silence in the middle of a conversation.
You notice that in those moments you weren’t looking.
But it doesn’t stop you from looking now.
Because that moment felt so good and you felt in such the right place.
You can’t help looking, but you can pause, notice what you really want, and remember.
Life comes to us, like a shy cat in the afternoon.
If we are patient and defenseless, it may just curl up with us and take a nap.